the first time

quite contrary to poplar belief, the first time isnt the best. Its a setting of the stage for the second time, and the time after, when you can experiment and make things better and better. that can be applied to almost everything in life...
sometimes the first time makes it feel more intense, but only because its new. New things always feel... new. different. exciting. but it can get better, and thats something to look forward to.
its like... new shoes, you love them when theyre new and shiny and its awesome... then youve had them for awhile, and you realize how much you love them because theyre all worn out and comfy. Just keeps getting better.
and you thought i was talking about sex
hee hee
anyhow, im sorry it seems like i died, but i havent been on, its been nothing but go go go after thursday when i wrote the last post, i havent even gotten online since then, crazy huh. I lovebeing busy though, having a packed schedule and running all over town and between towns and walking my feet off.
Ive noticed a flaw in parental thinking and behavior (i like to analyze people... so watch out youre prolly next =-O or, if i se you a lot i prolly have a 3 page report about you and your habits and dreams and attitudes and reactions.... just kidding :-P ), to totally change the subject. Maybe its just my parents...but maybe youll notcie (or have noticed). The parents job, as far as i know, is to get you ready for the world, so you treat other people right and have good social skills and working skills and attitudes and ethics and all of that mac and cheese. Not to make you do their work for them. I almost think parents and children shouldnt live together all of the time, because then everyone gets stressed at everyone, and the parents lose sight of their job. The parents then make the kid do the stuff they dotn want to so they dont have to, pick him/her apart. The kid gets mad more, frustrated, learns to try and ditch all their crappy chores and small jobs on other people... etc. The kid when out in the world acts how their supposed to, are responsible, doesnt do drugs or anything, and yet the parent is giving them a hard time at home and doesnt see it, and probably doesnt even care that their job has gone fairly well, which is preparing the kid to face the world, and they actually start to fall back a little on it. The kid gets frustrated and depressed, then starts sneaking things because the parents just dont notice anything about how good their doing (and the kid thinks theyre doing horrible), and its easy to get around some of the rules, so they do it, and that has the potential to ruin everything that the kid was doing right. Parents need to notice the good things about their children, and remember what their job is, and it isnt locking your kid up with rules or treating them like crap or dumping your work on them. Its better to have an open policy with your kids, so at least you know whats going on with them, what theyre doing and where, because chances are you arent going to stop them, and you arent going to know, and thats just how it is.You'll be there for them, help them tlearn from their mistakes... We do things, and sometimes we will do anything it takes to get something that we really want, and you could literally lock us up and we will find some way around it. Please, just listen and notice and focus.
dont make us choose between you and something or someone else... because if you keep us trapped, itll be an easy descision... why would we not do something because you dont want us to when you dont do anything for us?

Love~
Monika =)