Sweet? 16

Today is my birthday, and of course there has to be the first snow day of the year today... :-P but what can I do. Whats even worse is I didnt have bowling yesterday because of the weather, but it didnt even snow anymore and the roads werent bad so there couldve been after school activities. hm.
Last night I had the wierdest dream... My parents were separating, and me and my mom and a couple others were going to live in this one house down the road. Then I was finding a prom dress. Then Troy's mom was giving me a makeover. Then I worked at Kmart with my best friend from elmira who never talks to me. I guess thats what I get for sleeping so long! I woke up at 6, turned on the radio, and was listening to the school closings, right, and the guys winding down, and feel this little bit of hope, and then, AFTON CENTRAL SCHOOLS, CLOSED.... and so, my first words on my birthday were "This sucks.". Then I went downstairs and let the dogs out, and proceeded to go back to sleep on the couch until 11;30, and somehow sleepign through my family getting ready for the day. I was awake for a second though when someone said "Man, monika must sleep really soundly".... it was funny. When I woke up at 11;30 it was because of my brother watching his tape of "Elmo's World". And that is how my day began. Oh, and my mom got me flowers :-D.
Lately though Ive been looking over some choices Ive made, and I regret some of them, and it bothers me that i can't change them you know. I just learned to really think before you do anything, and dont let other people make your decisions. Dont trick yourself into wanting something you dont, or settling for less. If you really want something, you can wait, and it'll just be better when you finally do get it. I learned that the hard way, i tend to get impatient, and settle for less if I can have it right then. Not a good trait, but hopefully im getting out of it.
I remember thinking 14 was old lol. I remember being in preschool, and telling Mr. Hall how I missed 1994 when it was 1995 right after new years. Mr Hall was awesome, he was rather large, and so one time we went out for recess, and he blocked the tube slide with his stomach, and we all slid and and piled on top of each other til the slide was full and we couldnt get out. It was so fun. Mr Hall died though, a few years ago. He had a heart attack during class I heard. A lot of people have died... famous people. Mr Rogers, Johnny and June Cash, John Ritter, Ray Charles. The people that you think'll never die, and then theyre gone.
I remember a lot from preschool and kindergarten and first grade. I think first grade was my most mature year ever, isnt that wierd? Well, this is getting to be quite long and rambling with a touch of depression, so im going to go now :-P (I'm obsessed with smileys today)

Love~
Monika =)