The Great Divide(s)

I was observing my life today (I observe things a lot, even though sometimes you can't tell lol), and my family, because I just got back from being at my grandma's for a week and I'm settling back into the hectic routine of my usual life. But I was noticing the things that have changed, and I noticed some big "divides"...
Sibling Rivalry.... My sister, Hannah (who's going on 13), and I used to get along really well. We'd play all kinds of games, and 'what if' and 'invisible' and all that kind of stuff, even though we're three years apart. Then, I don't really know what happened, but we're completely opposite and we don't really talk more than we need to or anything. She's a country girl, well on her way to being a full-blown redneck, and I'm more of a city kid. I like guys (duh), and she avoids them at all costs and thinks theyre dumb. She doesn't like to write anything, and I write all the time. She still does some of the stuff we used to do together, and I dont at all. It's like... I don't really know. There's just this gap between us now because we don't have any of the same interests and we drive each other crazy.
And homeschooling... theres this gap between homeschoolers and public-schoolers in the social world, because you can be close friends with a public schooler, but not as close as the people they see every day. My siblings don't really have any close friends, because there arent really many other homeschooling families around here. So my one sister (who's 10) has attached herself to my other sister (who's 12) (lol so many family members), because there isnt really anyone else for her to do anything with. Now she copies my 12yr old sister in everything, and some of the traits she's developing arent that admirable. I wish she had some other friends that she got to see on a regular basis so she could have some other influences... but i wouldn't support sending my siblings to public school, I'd be afraid for them :-P. I've heard of 3rd graders (not in our specific school, but around), selling pot... and i was a little worried about that. If it's in other schools, and I've heard the language and general not-caring-ness of the younger generation and I was like... i dont want my siblings to experience that every day. If there was a homeschooling group around here, maybe a christian one like I used to go to when I was homeschooled in elmira, it would be awesome for them. I just wish they could get "socialized", before they all turn into... i dont really know. But being in the same house with the same people all the time isn't very good for you. Especially when you get older, like my age. I know of a couple of homeschooled teens, and they're depressed and such. They don't really fit in with society at all, and that's not very good for your self image or self esteem. And mentally, you always feel inferior to kids who have friends and go to school and do things like normal people. Im still stuck in that, I feel like I'm not "up to par" with everyone else... and it hurts sometimes. I wish my siblings could get out more so they don't experience the same thing.


Love~
Monika =)