A study of Anorexia (and starving children in latin america)
Last night, I was puking. How's that for a good introductory sentence? Your fist sentence is supposed to grab attention, i don't know if that made you want to read more or run the other way, but there you go. So, anyway. I was puking and everything, and I got up late this morning because i was feeling all gross you know, and i was going to have my mom drive me to school. My dadd leaves to go to work, but comes back in the front door (meanwhile im still in my pj's on the floor) and says his car wont start, he's going to have to take the van. Now, that leaves me in a predicament, because then my mom wont be able to drive me. So, I have 3 options.
1) Not go to school at all, and miss my friends, and practice, and schoolwork
2) Ride the late bus with obnoxious young children
3) Go with my dadd right then with no time to shower or find decent clothes
After quickly (well, as fast as a brain can go after being up most the night) going through the pros and cons, I chose option 2. But that had its own problems... i only had around 1/2 and hour to forty five minutes to get ready, and i didnt know exactly when the bus came. So, I jump up, announce my plans, and get ready as fast as i can. Then stand and freeze in front of my house, waiting for a bus that could get there any minute or in 15 minutes. And the whole time I still feel sick, and by getting on that bus im sealing my fate because my mom wont be able to come and pick me up from school, but i dont have any second thoughts... so, i ride the bus.
To the anorexia for a day (almost) part. I was still feeling sick when i got to school, and i didnt know how my body would react to solid food, so i didn't eat any to avoid the risk of puking again. All day today, all i had was water and a single tic tac, and not a speck of anything else until like 7 after i got back from practice I had a bowl of Ramen noodles and a glass of milk. But all today, since lunch yesterday, I didn't eat anything else. 29 hours with nothing but a tic tac and some water. It was pretty interesting, i was beyond the point of hunger, so it was just this dull ache. And i was zoned out pretty much all day, but not as bad as i had expected. Ive had worse days, today i could actually function and hold coherent conversations. It was pretty spiffy. Not to mention, at the end of the day, fully clothed with a sweatshirt on, I was 4 pounds lighter than i weigh an any regular morning just out of the shower with no clothes on. It was kind of satisfying in a way, to see the scale down that far, but i would never be able to do anything like that on a regular basis. I love food too much. Today though, I just chose being at school over food, and im glad I did. It was more than worth it... :-). My stomach capacity has shrunk, so i wont be eating that much tomorrow either, but that's okay because im going to be gone during lunchtime tomorrow anyway. Going bowling with 5th graders,...
I'm going to go now, leaving you with my thoughts of being anorexic ( and i threw up too... does that count as bulimic for a day?) and starvation, and all that good stuff. Thank you for reading about my ventures.
Love~
"Big Mon"
(lol cassie and tricia)
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