Stop Flippin Flipping Out

I hate it when people overreact and freak out about things but do nothing to change anything. they blame it all on everyone else and never take any action or any blame or anything. Their worlds are stuck and wil probably never change. And they will die from a heart attack from the stress.
I also hate it when peopl ask someone a questions and theyre like "come on what do you really want to do?" so the other person answers and theyre like "no way! anything but that" ...

i dont know. i feel like writing but i have no time for anything. now i relax by laying in my bed reading books like Dirty White Boys and Plain Jane and old issues of Redbook from the library. And then i worry because i have to get my homework done in school the next day. But Ill say its pretty worth it, just to have the moments of procrastinating calm bliss. everything always works out and falls into place, I love that. :D

I cant wait for it all to fall into place for me to get the flip out of here! I know bills and work and all that... but You know what? minus the "family (dadd) tension". I feel bad because everyone else has to stay here, and i feel especially bad for my mom.. but she married him so she must love him right? okay then. but i mean ive been here the longest you i deserve to get out.

And the boyfriend.. i always feel like such a boring failure girlfriend. sometimes i just want to kick myself. sigh.

anyhow i have to go before i get in trouble, but i had to say Hi to matt before I go... because matt reads this sometimes and i appreciate it. Im sorry i havent been on so much. pfft i am falling short and spreading myself thin. sometimes though it makes it better, and i dont have to dwell on things so much. eh...

byes all of you.

Love~
Monika