the pull

The way things change has really become obvious to me in the past week, through my neighbors and in my relatives. I know things change, but the amazing thing is how you don't really think it's going to. Its one of things you don't really fully grasp until it happens, and then when it does... it kind of takes you by surprise.
This week I went to my grandparents (my moms parent's and my dadd's mom), and my Aunt's (my mom's and dadd's sisters) houses. I haven't seen them in a long time, especially the family on my dadd's side. I hadn't even seen one of my aunts' new houses even though the rest of my family had. But my grandma's house seemed so different than I remember from when i was younger. It seemed to have shrunk, and some things just felt different. I wasn't ready for that- it was like I expected that house to always be the same and never change. It makes me wish that i could go back and sit in the corner and watch the Disney version on Prince & the Pauper while everyone cooked and the dog (he died), runs around barking. And looking under the chair to find the cat that was always there (he died too). Now i just walked in and sat, while she turned on her new big radio to my favorite station and ate a mushy apple. One thing that stayed the same was the smell, and I'm thankful for that because I love the smell of her house. It happned over time... i guess one day i just realized it.
There's fast change too, where everything in your life suddenly just... turns and you werent expecting it. Like my neighbors. A couple of months ago my one set of nieghbors decided to move, and then they sold their house faster than they expected. The people buying the house dont want the trailer that neighbors are renting on the property, so that set of people had to move out. They finished today... so their gone and soo the first set who sold their house will be gone too. Two houses that were like my own... one that i practically lived in over the summer babysitting while the mom was at work, and the other... i coudl go over whenever like the time at 10;30 at nigth when i was bored stff and everyone here went to bed. Now its all gone... or about to be. A month ago i didnt see this coming and in a week everything's different...

and it will never be the same again

Love~
M