Jest Chillin yo

lol.
So all of my best friend sare down at the ball game. (THE LAST HOME GAME) and Im home. making a cake. woo. I want to be there so bad but apparently my mom wants me to be home and "do whatever I want" so... here i am. doing nothing, which isnt what i want. the boys should come up here and play in my yard :D that would be awesome.
I really want to take a shower... maybe I should do that. But I need to clean my room... and the things you need to do often prevail over which you want... which sucks. That remind me of Mona Lisa Smile, which was an awesome movie, I guess because I related to it a lot. It was about how different things make different people happy. Maybe someone is getting married and letting go of career dreams just because thats whats expected and thats what theyre "supposed" to do. And maybe someone else is letting dreams go to get married and have a family, becaus ethats what they really want. I just dont want to end up married and not happy.... stuck with 5 kids and 2 mortgages on a house somewhere cold, driving a crappy minivan or SUV. Never going on vacation, or two the movies, and ...not getting any love from my man. That would be the worst way my life could turn out. I think i would go insane... and then bad things would happen.

Love~
Monika

PS Matt- I got your other comment a couple posts down :)