its.... coming....

im getting the flu (courtesy of my grandpa) and i can feel it coming... and I cant stop it. I hate that feeling. its like... i have approximately 12.3765 hours before I am miserable. So i eat a lot. its like... ill either be puking or sleeping or my throat will be too sore to eat so i eat while i can.
Its kind of like life you know... you know youre going to die (except for christians you wont be miserable youll go to heaven but still... just play along).... and so you should enjoy life. Focus on the thngs you CAN do instead of the things you "have" to do. Dont put things off. You know its coming but you arent positive of when so you just have to take it while you can. Dont get wrapped up in a mundane 14 hour a day 6 day a week poop job just for the money. The worlds like... GET THIS JOB BUY A BIG HOUSE AND A NICE CAR ANDGO TO WORK EVERYDAY AND GET MARRIED AND S/HE CAN GO TO WORK TOO HAVE KIDS AND MAYBE GO ON VACATION EVERY NOW AND THEN AND ITLL BE PERFECT... yyeeaah. plk (i just like spazzed and typed that, but it seems to fit).
So. That seems to be the topic of a lot of my blogs.
LIVE IN YOUR CAR AND DRIVE EVERYWHERE AND DO YOUR LAUDRY AT LAUDROMATS AND STOP FOR A FEW DAYS AND DO ODD JOBS FOR GAS AND FOOD MONEY. I was thinking the other day though, what of yuo met someone and they kept you parked in one town for awhile then you wanted to get married... whatre you going to say? Hey baby... you can live at my place. I know the back seats a little crowded, but all we need is love right? I get the right half the seat and you get the left. What? No you cant have the right. I drive im on the right side all the time i want the left sometime you know. I know thats where you feel comfortable, but its my car.
hee.
ah the wanderings of a sickness-dulled mind.

Love~
Monika