literally forgetting to breathe

Do you know that song where it says "Why can't I breathe whenever i think about you..." has that ever happened to you when you like someone? You're just sitting there and you either can't, or gorget to, breathe... its ... wow
Anyhow, a lot of things are really intense in my life right now, my relationship with my Dadd is going back downhill, i like someone a lot, my faith, school, my cat, Daisey, just drowned in our pool last night. I just have loads to think about, and I'm getting a little lost in it all.
Speaking of school, I've been skipping homework, skipping class, skipping rules, skipping classwork... skipping everything. It's a little fun, it sure livens things up. As long as I don't get caught, and I haven't yet ;-). I'm pretty good at it. Mr. Rapp (the gym teacher who's in charge of giving detentions and such :-P), even saw me the other day skipping gym, and he didn't even say anything.
Do you know where the quietest, best smelling place in the whole school is during classes? The auditorium. And it's unlocked. It's super dark, super quiet, warm... it's awesome. Me and a friend left class the other day on seperate excuses, met up, and sat in there. It was so nice.
Tonight's a parade, which I don't have to be in, thank heaven. Our church usually does a Drive-Thru bethlehem thing where everyone dresses up and everything... it's like a re-creation village in the church parkinglot. We aren't doing it this year though, we'e having a mini Bethlehem in the parade. It's pretty spiffy, but I'm not walking down mainstreet wearing a bedsheet or burlap. No, thank you. I'll watch. I have some friends that are going to be in it, and my family is, so I'll just be supprtive and everything like a good girl.
I'm reading this book, and it's really good. It's called "Certain Prey" by John Sandford. It has a hitwoman instead of all the hitmen that usually work for the mafia.
Anyhow, now I have to go... and do something. I haven't even showered yet and it's like almost one. eeeeeeew.


Love~
Monika =)